October Update

Benefits of music -Best week of marriage so far -Emily coming out to visit -Preparing to apply for PhD
 
I love touting my opinion on these blog posts. I love taking all the passionate anger the urks my soul and spitting it randomnly in these posts.

But, since I have deleted my Facebook, I would like to add update posts on here as to what has been happening in my life. Some crazy big changes have recently happened. First off, I bought an iphone. I'm so glad I deleted my Facebook weeks before I bought the phone. I don't have to worry as much about being so involved with technology that it detracts from all the greater things in life.

I did download Instagram but I mostly just use it to take cool pictures, not talk to network. Isn't my husband sexy? I love seeing tools in his hands. Our cats adorable too. Did I mention that I bought a cat? I guess that is a post for another day.

I mostly bought the phone so that I could use the recording software on there for when I start doing interviews for the thesis I've been working on. I can't believe the masters will be done in April. Its going way too fast, but I'm actually really enjoying this semester. I get to research Kennedy's death and read primary source documents.

I also get to start applying for PhD programs. I don't actually think I'll get in, especially since I'm only applying for two--University of Utah and University of Maryland--but who knows. I retake the GRE next month. I've already started studying. I think I may teach college some day. I'm not for certain, but I  hear that mothers with a background in higher education do a great job raising children--we'll have to see about that in a few years.

Brandon is going to enroll at SLCC in January and start a full course load. We're pretty excited about it. We're both currently doing a lot of studying and brushing up on things.

Marriage has really been great the past few weeks. I think I finally understand why people do it. Its great to be loved and love.

We'll have another temporary addition to the family in a couple weeks. Emily, my 18-year-old sister, is coming to live with us till Christmas. As you may already know, Sam, my 16-year-old little brother, came and stayed with us this summer and that was enjoyable, so we are looking forward to doing it again.

Those are our update. Some big things are coming up and we'll see where they take us!

Time may change me

I won't lie. Life is really hard right now. I've been going through some personal things that would make a nun swear. It sucks. It really, really sucks. I went five years without crying, not once--except when a friend died. And now, I cry all the time. I'm a basket case. Its embarrassing. I find myself stressed, anxious and depressed for no real reason--there is a reason, I just don't like to get personal on here. I cried in the grocery store yesterday, I had to put my sunglasses on to hide the tears. My husband should've been embarrassed but instead he held me, helped me laugh it off and then took me home. I couldn't even watch most of the presidential debate a couple days ago, because the tension was killing me, making me highly anxious. I went in the bedroom and watched a sitcom. I have to admit though, I listened to the debate after when I heard it was a success for a certain candidate and I enjoyed every minute. I remember when there was a time that I had absolutely no involvement in politics and now I find the upcoming elections have me really worried. A lot of my involvement has to do with an involved husband. I'm so impressed by him. He's always reading the news, listening to talk radio and trying to understand all sides of an issues before making a judgment. He's taught me to do that with every aspect of my life: politics, religion, health, family, education. I question things a lot more and I learn a lot more. He's been a real blessing through all of these new, unforeseen issues. When I start to feel dark, he always seems to lighten them up. I am thankful for that. I'm thankful that I married an older, more mature man who supports me when things get tough and I go a little crazy. It really makes all the difference. But enough of all this mushy crap. Men are pigs. Note: I did try and put this in paragraphs, but the stupid computer wouldn't let me.